On this day, one year ago, I woke up and couldn't stand. I fell down. An old injury in my knee had been exacerbated to the point of excruciating pain and I didn't know what to do. I willed myself to stand, and it's a good thing too. Later in that day I would find myself riding in an ambulance to Morristown hospital, not for me, but for my Mom. My life changed after that day, what I knew to be true became a reality.
One year ago...time changes lives. We lose people. We gain people. We change. We grow. We make choices.
You may be reading this across the ether wondering what I'm writing about, or you may be thinking, yeah I know what she's saying.
Choice, is the beginning of any change small or large.
Such as,
I choose to open my eyes.
I choose to get out of bed.
I choose to be happy.
I choose to eat healthy food.
I choose to eat another donut.
I choose to open my heart.
I choose to spend the rest of my life with this person.
I choose to sell my house.
I choose to be a loving parent.
I choose to be a drunk.
I choose to be sober.
I choose to love myself.
I choose to change myself...
Why is choice so very important? The ability to choose makes us human. Many times we are influenced by others, but from the first moment our mother takes us in her arms and we cry because we're hungry, we are choosing to live.
Of course choice gets a bit more difficult the older we get.
Some choices require risk. Maybe the riskier the choice, the more longterm benefit we get in the end. Or perhaps just the opposite.
Maybe playing it safe is the way to go...
I think it is a personality thing(flaw?) that causes certain folks to make certain choices in their life. Fear keeps us from doing so much. Damn you fear!
Fear of:
judgement
pain
loss
Anytime I feel something, I try to turn it around and say the opposite to myself.
If I fear judgement, I will tell myself that I love acceptance.
Sometimes this works, but not always. There are moments when the fear just turns inward and becomes self-sabotage. Of course I'm a classic self-sabotager...but sometimes I find there has to be some collateral damage in order to achieve certain goals. Anyone else get what I'm saying?
If there is no risk in action, what's the point of that action? The fear of loss is what holds folks back the most.
I think Bob Dylan said it best when he said, "When you've got nothin', you've got nothin' to lose." Thanks Dylan, that sums up pretty much every aspect of my life. When you're at the bottom, the lowest of the low, the only place you can go is up. This constant scramble for something more authentic in life.
I took a risk, some call this faith. I don't think so. I just know a few secrets about life. Shhhh come in close and I will tell you...
1. Never forget how short life truly is, try to enjoy everyday for good and bad.
2. Love others. Not for their beauty, or fame, or intelligence or even for what they do for you. Love them for the innate humanity that lies within each person. Love them for their flaws, and remember that everything we dislike in another is really just what reminds us of ourselves.
3. Time continues, even when we do not.
4. Money comes and money goes. It is not everything.
5. We choose how we feel. If we are miserable that is our choice. If we are happy that is our choice. Choose your life, create it, make it what you desire, listen to your inner wisdom.
Okay Peeps, that's all I've got for today. Sorry if it was kind of abstracted...enjoy your days!
And remember even if you're sad or miserable, those are just feelings and all feelings change in time.
Some choices require risk. Maybe the riskier the choice, the more longterm benefit we get in the end. Or perhaps just the opposite.
Maybe playing it safe is the way to go...
I think it is a personality thing(flaw?) that causes certain folks to make certain choices in their life. Fear keeps us from doing so much. Damn you fear!
Fear of:
judgement
pain
loss
Anytime I feel something, I try to turn it around and say the opposite to myself.
If I fear judgement, I will tell myself that I love acceptance.
Sometimes this works, but not always. There are moments when the fear just turns inward and becomes self-sabotage. Of course I'm a classic self-sabotager...but sometimes I find there has to be some collateral damage in order to achieve certain goals. Anyone else get what I'm saying?
If there is no risk in action, what's the point of that action? The fear of loss is what holds folks back the most.
I think Bob Dylan said it best when he said, "When you've got nothin', you've got nothin' to lose." Thanks Dylan, that sums up pretty much every aspect of my life. When you're at the bottom, the lowest of the low, the only place you can go is up. This constant scramble for something more authentic in life.
I took a risk, some call this faith. I don't think so. I just know a few secrets about life. Shhhh come in close and I will tell you...
1. Never forget how short life truly is, try to enjoy everyday for good and bad.
2. Love others. Not for their beauty, or fame, or intelligence or even for what they do for you. Love them for the innate humanity that lies within each person. Love them for their flaws, and remember that everything we dislike in another is really just what reminds us of ourselves.
3. Time continues, even when we do not.
4. Money comes and money goes. It is not everything.
5. We choose how we feel. If we are miserable that is our choice. If we are happy that is our choice. Choose your life, create it, make it what you desire, listen to your inner wisdom.
Okay Peeps, that's all I've got for today. Sorry if it was kind of abstracted...enjoy your days!
And remember even if you're sad or miserable, those are just feelings and all feelings change in time.
Kewl and I agree!
ReplyDelete